I’ve neglected some things that I want to make a higher priority in my life. Things that at one time I thought would be a high priority by now. The reality is that my life has improved leaps and bounds compared to where I was just one year ago. When you fall into a difficult period you have no choice but to prioritize. Struggle to get enough money to feed yourself and pay your rent so you can stay in this damn town because that’s somehow better then crawling back home. There are plenty of things that take a backseat to your depression.
I had to get a root canal this week because I hadn’t gone to a dentist in two years. It was a blatant form of karma because I had scolded my brother for doing the exact same thing several months ago. It’s the classic caring-about-other-people-more-than-yourself thing that women in my family seem to be plagued with in some form or another. I wasn’t in pain but had no idea how bad things had gotten.
But this is a process. So I look at this pretty pitiful blog that is the victim of my apathy. I look at the long word document saved in my Dropbox that hasn’t been touched in 6 or 8 months. I look at the bare walls in my apartment that are crying out for a little bit of expression. I see the stack of half-read books and socks that need replacing and the people that need to be met. I’m working on it.
Yeah my mouth hurts and my room is still a mess, but I’m happy.
Can we talk about how amazing this song is?
First-person cultural narratives about major battles are often written through the distorting haze of a long memory — that’s what David Carr was trying to counter when he investigated his own past for his memoir Night Of The Gun. But there’s no substitute, really, for the necessary honesty that comes with currency. Allie Brosh is Allie Brosh right now. You can wish her well, but she’ll tell you she’s not sure how it’s going. That’s part of why people with depression believe her. It’s part of why they trust her so much. She told The Telegraph about depression: “It’s sort of like a thing that is maybe a tunnel, but also maybe a giant tube that just keeps going in a circle. And you can’t tell which one it is while you’re in it. There might be light, but there might just be more tube.
Important Thoughts While Walking Home
Remember that time when you first started watching My Mad Fat Diary and you were like “ohmygerd Archie is so presh, totally my crush on this show” and then WOOOOSH suddenly Finn entered your life and it was more then a crush, it was true deep meaningful love with a fictional character?
…A 14-year-old wrote this post.